Archive | June, 2011

When I Am Among the Trees

24 Jun

When I am among the trees,
especially the willows and the honey locust,
equally the beech, the oaks and the pines,
they give off such hints of gladness,
I would almost say that they save me, and daily.

I am so distant from the hope of myself,
in which I have goodness, and discernment,
and never hurry through the world
but walk slowly, and bow often.

Around me the trees stir in their leaves
and call out, “Stay awhile.”
The light flows from their branches.

And they call again, “It’s simple,” they say,
“and you too have come into the world to do this, to go easy,
to be filled with light, and to shine.

~ Mary Oliver ~

Dr. D shared this during group last night and I thought it would be nice to have here.


proper equipment

22 Jun

Yesterday was supposed to be the first run for my 10k training but I really didn’t want to leave the house. So after my daily meditation, I decided to do the strength training day earlier in the week. 10 Minute Solution – Kickbox Bootcamp has been collecting dust since I ordered it on January 3 (yes, I am that girl who orders fitness DVDs the first week of the new year) and I figured being able to only do two ten minute workouts would be better than say something from the Jillian Michaels sweaty hell collection.

I think I made the right choice. It’s pretty easy and definitely for beginners. There is always part of me that wants to start off doing really complicated, long workouts, as I want change NOW NOW NOW! But, as this blog has demonstrated time and again, that doesn’t really work for me. Now I’m trying the non-judgment route. Anything that gets my ass off the couch and ends up with me sweaty is a good thing. Even if it’s just dancing around the living room to some Beyonce for 10 minutes. And yes, I have done that and perhaps will do it tonight to warm up for running.

Anyway, in an amusing bit of irony (I think?), I used the TV and DVD remotes as dumbbells during the upper body stuff because all I have is 3lbs ones and I don’t think I am quite ready for that. See? In the past I would have used them and then not been able to lift my arms for a week. I did feel a little silly waving around the remote controls but in a way, it was nice. I feel like I’ve gotten to a point where I just don’t care what anyone else thinks of me, especially when I am working out. I don’t wear my glasses when I run so I can’t see their faces anyway. And if I am worrying about how I look or what they are thinking, it sort of defeats the purpose of exercising because it’s good for me and I deserve to be healthy. That doesn’t have anything to do with that guy I work with who is waiting for the bus and just saw me run by looking really sweaty in my Capitals hat.

My arms are getting tired.

21 Jun

Still hanging in there….ten months later?

Things are going okay. I feel like I am in a better place now than the last time I posted, so that’s a good thing. I’ve even finished an 8k and 10k (walking, mostly!) since then.

I’m currently doing some Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction in a group setting. Basically, I am learning to meditate and be in the moment. And trying to stay motivated to train for another 10k in the fall. I’d like to run the whole thing, even if it’s a gentle trot.

Mostly, focusing on practicing self-care. I am thinking I want to chronicle things here but who knows.